Ahhhhh! Hi guys! So yesterday I reached 4000 on Instagram! It's huge milestone for me, and I'm so happy! Thank you! To celebrate, I'll be holding a giveaway soon, as well as reveal something that I've been working on together with my waifu Fetsu-chan. Also, I'm just about to reach 2000 likes on my facebook page, so that's a big thing for me too. I feel so... appreciated. For all the work I do. And it makes me want to continue, and become better at what I'm doing. It has raised my self confidence, and made me feel a lot better.
People may think I have become bratty, stuck up or stupid just because I have learned how to say 'no', or because I have self confidence and periods when I'm really happy, but well then, they may as well think that way. Because that just proves they don't know me. I do understand their way of thinking though, but I don't think it's ok to push others down just because they are feeling happy or well. Ugh I'm sure I'm gonna get shit thrown at me for saying this, but well, at least I'm honest and open. And I want to keep it that way. No one is perfect, everybody makes mistakes, but you have to be able to forgive, forget and change. And let changes happen. I have had a hard time dealing with changes, and I'm sorry about that. I've been so scared to be alone, since ever since I was a small kid, people have left me alone. I'm so scared to see the ones I love disappear, turn their back on me, feel bad, get hurt. I've been selfish at time, because of how scared I've been. I wish I done things differently... yet not. Because as well as I miss some things from the past, I'm happy about some new things that's here, in the present.
I wish I could make everyone happy. There's so many people that I love, and have loved, that has gotten hurt because of me. And I have ended up getting hurt as well. Feelings make everything so much more complicated... yet, it's kinda nice to have feelings. To be able to feel happiness and love when you hang out with your friends and loved ones. It's just stupid that such things as hatred and jealousy exist. It creates a lot of trouble. I used to be such a jealous person... but I'm happy I have changed. Sure, of course I get jealous at times, but it's only for like, a protective reason, like boyfriend stuff. It's rare though. Before I could be jealous about friends, since I felt so insecure and scared, but now with my friends, I never feel jealous. Because they make me feel safe and I trust them.
Trust is a scary thing, but I think it's necessary. I happy I have friends I can trust. They're the best honestly.
Well... enough of that boring, serious stuff! More info about the giveaway should be up in April, since I'm still awaiting for some stuff to arrive.
I can say this much: Everything in the giveaway will be really cute, handmade things!
So stay updated by following me here, on facebook or my Instagram!
Chuu puppies~! ♡
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