♡ I'm now 18 years old ♡

30-04-1996 to 30-04-2014

Wow. So now it's here. The time I have been waiting for for years. I'm 18 years old. I'm of legal age. I'm old enough to drink alcohol, play in lotteries, buy cigarettes and shit, go to clubs, travel to foreign countries myself, never need any parents to sign papers for me... all of that. Not that I will do all of it or feel the need to. But just knowing that I can is such a big thing for me. And most important of all... I CAN SHOP ONLINE! Teehee, just kidding! ^__^ But I can... 

It feels odd, and now I have to do a lot of stuff myself, like taking extra responsibility, and handle a lot of difficult things, but it's a part of growing up and I'm happy. I feel rather free, because I can't do pretty much whatever I want, except that I have to follow my homes' rules, and not do anything against the law or something. Use my freedom with responsibility. I'll learn! ... hopefully.

Anyhow, I spent my birthay with Tir, Ed and Beatrice, along with some other guests, the dogs and Niklas and Johan. Niklas had to go to Stockholm as a backup for Peter Jöback though, for the last show, since Peter and his husband were expecting a baby and the mother was in the hospital and so on so they didn't know if Peter would have to leave or not. Buuut he didn't, so Niklas never got to play as Sweeney Todd that night. 

But I had an amazing day with my friends, after school, and we had grilled chicken and vegetables, raspberry cake, loads of snacks, soda and stuff, we talked about everything and nothing and just had so much fun, aaaand watched '28 days later'. They stayed at my place until the next day and I was really happy and satisfied ^_^

I felt so spoiled after getting so many nice gifts though!

Got money from mom, and we're going to a restuarant together.
Got a dream catcher, a handmade mouth mask, a strawberry blonde wig, candy, love and a train ticket for this summer from my boyfriend <3
Got candy, necklaces and a pair of boots for my Levi cosplay from Ed!
Got vanilla body splash, a Seremedy ticket and little baby angel from Peggy. 
Got YOHIO tickets from Mary!
Got a pink nice box, a new mobile subscription and some money from Niklas and Johan.  
Got body lotion, body scrub (both with papaya and mango), as well as a Ciel plushie from Beatrice.
Got a SnK cake from Emelie, and a Levi X Erwin cake from Clarity. 
Got orange roses from Marie (I LOVE roses).
Tir simply spoiled me like WOAH hhhh lovely best friend. 

I'm so happy and thankful! ;3; I have such sweet friends and family, and they make me feel so loved because they show how much they care about me and love me even though I have my flaws. I love them all very much <3

I might do a birthday video soon ^___^

Chuu chuu puppies!

So it seems that I 'got caught'

First of all I want to start this blog post with a message, for a few ex family members.

Hi. I know you've been reading my blog. I know you've tried to see what I'm doing. Telling my mom lies. Making her think I'm talking badly about her behind her back. This made me really disappointed. You accuse me of being childish, but this, what YOU are doing right now, is childish. This is my blog. It's my shrink, my dairy, and something I do in my free time. All I write in this blog, is truth. It's from my point of view, and if you see things differently, then you may tell me that. My blog doesn't include bullshit about anyone. I have stated the truth and my opinions. That's not talking shit about someone. There's a very thin line between shit talk, and opinions/facts. And now, since a family member of mine now have asked me not to contact him, I have decided I won't. But then, you should stay the hell away from me, my life, and everything that includes me. Back off and stop Internet stalking me. If you're not happy with who I am then you're very welcome to just leave. I wanted you in my life so bad, but you cruelly told me to stay away and not call you anymore, even though I tried to be everything you wanted. I'm sorry I'm not the perfect child.

There has been a lot of other accusations such as me being an attention whore, fame whore, someone who just makes friends with 'famous' people (people with a lot of followers in social media) and someone who just uploads/posts stuff about my 'famous' friends. Also, I have been told that I'm acting bratty, and like I'm better than everyone else just because I'm staying positive and not trying to drown myself and others with self hate and bad statuses about how bad I feel or whatsoever. 
Okay, go for it, say what you want. Say what you want about me, but people will see through your pathetic lies, accusing, and desperate tries to make me look bad. Sure, I'm not flawless, but I'm not a horrible douche either. I've always been a pleaser, someone who wants to make everyone happy even though it might exclude myself. So now when I'm suddenly doing things for myself, I'm selfish and egoistic, and a douche. Logic? It's funny how all my friends, and people I barely know but have talked a bit to, adults and teens, thinks differently from the ones who accuses me for this. It's so funny, that even THE FRIENDS of the ones who accuses me, says that /I/ am right. That I don't deserve this, and that I should just ignore it all. But's pretty hard, since I want to be friends with everyone, or mostly everyone, as long as they're nice to me. It's hard when some people that have used to be nice, lovely and all, suddenly turns against you and do all this awful shit. 
Oh well. I have my best friends, close friends, extra family and an amazing boyfriend. 

Yesterday was tough, and I just want to thank Tir, Ida, Ran, Sam/Noiz, Lotta, Sebastian, Alex, Charlie, ED and others, for their incredible support, nice words and helping hugs. I love you all, loads. Thank you <3

I'm not sure what I would do without amazing friends. I would have been long lost and your support is worth so much <3

I hope I won't have too many false friends to handle later on in life. They come and go, here and there, and it's something everyone will have to deal with...

No one is perfect, and certainly, everybody can't fit as everybody's friends. But I have some pretty damn lovely friends right now and I'm lucky.

♡ Geocoloured Lens Review ♡

Hello puppies!

Geo Coloured Lenses sent me a pair of circle lenses from their wonderful store, so I'll be reviewing them today! ^__^

I wished for a pair of Geo Olive Turquoise, so that was what I got! I really wanted a pair of more 'natural' and smaller pair of lenses, so when I saw these I felt that they were just perfect. And when I got them, I was right. These lovelies are 14.2 millimeters, about the same size as my normal contacts. They're just slightly larger than my iris, so it still enlarges it, and gives it a nice darker rim around it. My eyes are greensih blue grey, so these lenses blend in with my eyes pretty nicely and I love how I can create a more natural look with them. They have this nice, clear greenish blue color, that makes me think of the ocean! Like, nice, clear blue water in Thailand or something. I like it a lot, and I think I will be able to wear them whenever I want a more natural and not too extrem look, or when I just want a bit bigger eyes and add some color to them. The price is currently 20.90$ + shipping.

I had no problem when I was going to put them in. They came in easy, and I didn't feel them at all after just a few seconds. The first one just stuck at first, but not so it felt uncomfortable or anything, I just pushed it up and them it was perfect. The second one just slid up where it was supposed to be.

With these lenses I got a case that is similar to the one that I got from Lens Circle, a pretty deep, nice and simple case, white with blue lids. It's good that they have deep case bowl thingies like that because then it can contain a bit of lens sollution and it's not likely to dry out any time soon, like people say the animal lenscases do. I have only experienced that with one of my cases though.

You can use these lenses for 12 months if you make sure to take care of them properly. I'm afraid they only come in plano, so if you have any problems with your eyesights and want lenses with power, these are not for you. But they look really great, and I use lenses without power anyway since I have pretty bad eyesight and astigmatism. Toric lenses costs a fortune really, woah. If you use the lenses daily, it's advised that you don't keep them for as long as 12 months.

I'm very happy with how these turned out to look on me, and I totally reccoment these. I think they would look really cool especially on someone with really bright eyes! I also have to say that I warmly recommend the store. The shipping was pretty quick,, and the service was great with fast replies.

Hopefully I'll be doing a video review on these soon, as well as my other lenses.

I hope you liked this, and make sure to check their site out if you are in need of circle lenses!

The lenses: http://www.geocolouredlenses.com/Geo-Olive-Turquoise

Chuu chuu puppies! ♡

Back from my journey to my boyfriend!

I am soooo sorry for my absence darlings! But if you follow me on Instagram or Facebook, you know why! I've been out on one hell of a journey, really! I travelled by train for 12 hours to go about 110 Swedish Miles to get to Piteå, in Norrland, the northern part of Sweden. That is where my boyfriend, Sebastian, lives. It was my first time ever going that far North in my own country, so it was the first time I went to see him in his home. It was really nice after not seeing him for 1,5 months, and hopefully he'll come to visit me soon. We had lots of fun and a really cozy time! I got to meet his parents, his dogs and cats, some of his friends, and meet his sister and her husband again. We went to a dog show with his mother (since they own like, loads of poodles and they're all adorable!), and my cravings for having a dog started growing again. Sigh, but I'll have to wait!

I filmed small clips all the time so I hope I can make a vlog out of it. If so, I will upload it soon, hopefully! We did some cosplay stuff too, and now, 'finally' Sebastian managed to pull me back into the Kuroko No Basuke fandom... He's cosplaying Imayoshi and Kagami, so I'll end up as his Kise and Sakurai, I guess, hehe!

Well, I'm home now at least and I miss him like crazy, I just want him to move down here already. But it's hard to get an apartment, so we'll have to wait until autumn, probably... but I can handle that, since we will spend lots of time together this summer! We're going to Skecon and Närcon together and it will be so much fun and ahhhh ; u ; I just gotta make sure to buy flight tickets soon before they get too expensive! Travelling to his place is far from cheap, really.

Meh so now when I'm home I will start updating my blog again, make videos and work hard with school and my crafting! I will have so much stuff to sell this summer, and I just made some super cute things yesterday! ^_^

Well well, school is starting in 8 minutes so... see you soon puppies! Chuu chuu!  

Lensvillage contest: WHAT?!

For the first time in my life, I won an internet contest! O__O
It was just a selfie contest on Instagram, and were are two winner. I participated without knowing it really. Lensvillage told you to tag them in a photo when you were wearing circle lenses from their site or something, and hashtag Lensvillage, to enter the contest. Since I've been sponsored by them, I made sure to mention them in a photo, not aware of the contest. But I ended up winning!

I'm so happy, feeling very lucky about it. I won three pairs of lenses, free of choice, so I have chosen two pairs for myself, and then a pair of lenses to surprise a loved one, as a gift~!  I found a pair of i.Fairy ones, the same as I have in yellow, but grey instead, so I chose them with a pair of pink ones, and another pair of grey that I know someone will have in use. I hope it's a good gift, because I consider it to be so myself.

Also, I've caught a cold... AGAIN? Yep. So I've been in bed watching Supernatural all day, studying, drinking tea, cuddling the dogs and so on, yep. It's been nice, but I'm tired, slow, my throat itches and aches and yeah. I miss a lot of school by getting sick all the time... which is sad, since I like school, but nothing can be done about it. I'm trying my very best to keep up with work, but I'm starting to doubt myself and wonder if I actually can make all the courses. I even dropped out of two and I don't want to drop out of any others. It feels really dumb, since I know I would have been able to fix school if I was just feeling well, and if my health condition had been better, as well as my family situations. Now when I'm finally in a calm and loving family, and around good friends, I'm trying my best to stay strong and go on. I'm looking forward to summer, with no school, just friends, baking, some working, acting, cons, cosplay and lots of fun. And next week I'll be going to Norrland and see Sebastian for the first time since the end of February, which makes me very happy! uwu

Now, I hope you all are fine and that you can stay strong as well. I'm sending you lots of hugs little cuties!

Chuu chuu!

Swedish Idol Audition Stockholm

So I got sick the other day so I missed Harajuku STHM... sad sad :( But it was okay, because I cheered up at home with Ben & Jerry's, talking to boyfriend, and playing sims. Even did some school work. So it was great anyway. I hope everyone who went there had a great time though! ^__^

And right now as I write, I'm at The Globe, Stockholm, at the Swedish Idol Auditon! I'm not the one who are doing the auditon, but I'm here to support my friend Mika. He's here to sing for the judges and hopefully he'll do just great! We've waited for almost 12 hours now.... and he's been singing for almost 4 now, to different judges and so on. We just hope that he'll make it to the competition. I'm waiting with our friend Kimberly, and we're having loads of fun together, just chillin', talking, rushing to the store to buy cocktail fruit and stuff. We've been singing all day, especially songs from the movie Frozen, and I realized just how much I miss singing. Hopefully I can take up on it again and become better at it, good enough to actually perform! That has been my dream since I was 4 years old, but I never thought I had a change. Besides, I do like acting as well, so yeah, I'm trying for both!

A bad thing is that I thought that I had lost all my lenses and lenscases since I couldn't find them in my bag. It turned out I had just forgot them at home. But that means I'll either have to wear my circle lenses for about 12 hours... or take them out and throw them away since I have nowhere to put them. It's not good to wear them for that long, I know that but... I have done it before. I'm trying to find another solution though since I don't want to damage my lenses or my eyes. My eyes are more important though. *sighs*

Well, I'm going home in an hour or so, so I'll just finish this now by saying that I have had an AMAZING day and I'm so happy I have such awesome friends who can keep all my anxiety and bad thoughts away so easily. Mhhh happy.

Chuu chuu puppies! 

Harajuku STHM

So I've been shopping a bit on eBay! Right now I'm expecting loads of nice materials so I can make stuff for my shop. The other day I also got some silicone from my gay dad Niklas, whiiiich means I can make whipped cream to jewelry and phone cases! I'm aiming to make a lot of stuff to sell at Närcon this summer, as well as sending a package off to my darling Fetsu as soon as all the stuff I need have arrived. Also I wanted to include a phone case in my giveaway, which why I haven't put it up yet! But hopefully sometime this month, I will hold it~! I'm excited about it and I hope you are too.

Today I will be going to 'Harajuku STHM', an event i Stockholm that's about fashion and so on. It will be held in Sundbyberg, Hallonbergsplan. People will be selling a lot of stuff there, and even though I don't have any money it will be loads of fun since I get to hang out with my sweetheart Alice, and hopefully also Isa. And meet a lot of other cute people too!

I had a hard time getting out of my bed this morning after lack of sleep, but I'm still feeling happy and positive about the day. I forgot my tea, bus card for weekend/evening use, and wallet at home, so it was rather annoying, but I got to lend money for dinner and to be able to take the subway home. Yay for that, nice teachers at school! <3

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wZvnepyOi7o

Besides, I made this video a couple of days ago! It's just some talk, but if you're interested you should check it out! My little dog friend Margit interrupted me ; w ; <3 *waves and points at link above while hugging the french bulldog*

I'm planning on starting to make monthly videos, about my favorite jewelry, clothes and stuff for the month. I just need to get my camera charger back from my mom's place though, before I can film it! Mhm, yes, this will be fun, I'm sure! Now, I hope you will have a good day. Bye bye puppies!

                                            

Shizaya photoshoot and lots of love ♡

Another weekend has passed! I spent most of it in bed, or in the kitchen, crafting, except Sunday, when I went to Stockholm for a cosplay photoshoot (Shizuo and Izaya from Durarara!!) with my friend Mary. It was such nice weather, warm and sunny, so I was happy about that. Also, I bought a new sweater and a jacket, which I will show pictures of later, and they are adorableeee! We got some great shots thanks to my big brother, and I'm editing them right now. I have missed cosplaying Izaya, he's such an interesting character.
Also, we made a really silly little youtube video, teehee~! For some reason the blog won't allow me to put up the youtube video there so you get the link.  

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ju7ZdkosVw&feature=youtu.be

Anyway, me and my Host Club Otaku Café are planning for the spring and summer events. Our plans and booked events are Game Play and StorCon. StorCon was our first event ever, last summer, so we're very excited about that one! Right now we're planning the secret theme for that convention! I have no idea who to host as though... I have Marshall Lee and probably Izaya on my list, but the convention is three days, so I have to figure out one more. Ugh, I don't know who, really. Now when Sebastian won't be there, I won't do Ciel or Nagisa, or at least I don't think so. I might do Grell, but the costume is really hot, so I'll have to rethink that. Besides, the wig is really thick and full of tangles since it's old and well used, but I still love the cosplay... nh. Not that it's... fully mine, but still.

And today, is the first of April, and i just have to mention that today Sebastian and I have been a couple officially for 6 months! （*＾3＾）/～♡ 

And in two weeks I'll be going to see him and I'm so exciteeeeed hhhhn! I've been preparing his birthday presents every since he turned 28, and I can't wait to give them to him. It's gonna be awesome. And it's only 30 days left until I turn 18. It's so weird. Three years ago it seemed like ages until I would get here, but now it's so close... it's crazy! But I'm looking forward to it, because... well, then my parents doesn't have anything to say about my choices, at least nothing that really counts or can change anything. I have already stepped away from them, and my dad has told me not to call him anymore, so fine, I won't. But... except that, it means... I CAN GET MY OWN EBAY AND PAYPAL ACCOUNT AND I CAN GO ANYWHERE WITHOUT PARENTS PERMISSION AND SHOP ONLINEEEEEEEEEEEEE! ♡ 

So... that's what I'm looking forward to. Well now, back to school and eBay shopping. Chuu chuu puppies!~ ♡