#SmileForJack

So the other day, I actually tried smiling honestly infront of the camera. Even showing my teeth. I don't like the way my smile looks, but I know that I like smiling people overall, so I wanted to try. I know many others doesn't like their smiles, so I made thing little thing up. I asked people to take a picture of them smiling, if I could make them smile, and hashtag 'SmileForJack'. And a lot of people really did it! It's so nice to see so many smiling faces. Honest smiles are the best ones. A small smile can easily change someone's mood, if only for a moment. 
I want to see people smile. I want to make them smile. I want to be funny, nice and so things that can make others happy. I've been told by many people, that I do make them happy. Which makes me happy. It's all a circle of good, and it goes round and around. It's a big thing for me, to be able to make people happier, cheer them up, by just giving them advice, tell them about myself, do funny stuff and spread my honest thoughts. Happiness is a gift, as well as so many other feelings, and I want to be able to give it to lots of people.

What makes me smile?

Being around the ones I love. My friends, my new family, my boyfriend. That makes me smile. Crafting does too, along with writing, cosplay, acting, and games. The most simple things in life are the ones I enjoy a lot. Cooking or baking, being around my gay dads, listen to them joke, and being happy with eachother. Our cute dogs when they cuddle. When I feel happy with an outfit, something I have made, a cosplay, whatever. It makes me smile when strangers are nice and polite to eachother. And when you get to help someone. When I can stand up and give my seat up for a person who needs it better than me, like a small kid, an old person or someone who's injured, at the subway. Yeah, things like that makes me smile.

I just felt like writing this, yeah, like always, I write whatever I feel like. Please bear with me, cuties.

Chuu chuu puppies! ♡

☆ Upcoming giveaway ☆

Ahhhhh! Hi guys! So yesterday I reached 4000 on Instagram! It's huge milestone for me, and I'm so happy! Thank you! To celebrate, I'll be holding a giveaway soon, as well as reveal something that I've been working on together with my waifu Fetsu-chan. Also, I'm just about to reach 2000 likes on my facebook page, so that's a big thing for me too. I feel so... appreciated. For all the work I do. And it makes me want to continue, and become better at what I'm doing. It has raised my self confidence, and made me feel a lot better. 

People may think I have become bratty, stuck up or stupid just because I have learned how to say 'no', or because I have self confidence and periods when I'm really happy, but well then, they may as well think that way. Because that just proves they don't know me. I do understand their way of thinking though, but I don't think it's ok to push others down just because they are feeling happy or well. Ugh I'm sure I'm gonna get shit thrown at me for saying this, but well, at least I'm honest and open. And I want to keep it that way. No one is perfect, everybody makes mistakes, but you have to be able to forgive, forget and change. And let changes happen. I have had a hard time dealing with changes, and I'm sorry about that. I've been so scared to be alone, since ever since I was a small kid, people have left me alone. I'm so scared to see the ones I love disappear, turn their back on me, feel bad, get hurt. I've been selfish at time, because of how scared I've been. I wish I done things differently... yet not. Because as well as I miss some things from the past, I'm happy about some new things that's here, in the present. 

I wish I could make everyone happy. There's so many people that I love, and have loved, that has gotten hurt because of me. And I have ended up getting hurt as well. Feelings make everything so much more complicated... yet, it's kinda nice to have feelings. To be able to feel happiness and love when you hang out with your friends and loved ones. It's just stupid that such things as hatred and jealousy exist. It creates a lot of trouble. I used to be such a jealous person... but I'm happy I have changed. Sure, of course I get jealous at times, but it's only for like, a protective reason, like boyfriend stuff. It's rare though. Before I could be jealous about friends, since I felt so insecure and scared, but now with my friends, I never feel jealous. Because they make me feel safe and I trust them. 

Trust is a scary thing, but I think it's necessary. I happy I have friends I can trust. They're the best honestly. 

Well... enough of that boring, serious stuff! More info about the giveaway should be up in April, since I'm still awaiting for some stuff to arrive. 

I can say this much: Everything in the giveaway will be really cute, handmade things!

So stay updated by following me here, on facebook or my Instagram!

Chuu puppies~! ♡

So many birthdays!

This weekend went really nice. Starting off with Friday, me and Tir went on a lunch date as casual Levi and Erwin from Shingeki no kyojin. It was so nice and cozy. Well, of course it was, he's one of my best friends and I love hanging out with him. But we went to get a nice veg sandwich and Subway, before going to Starbucks, since our friend Elvina works there. It's so funny to tell them 'Levi' and 'Erwin' when we buy coffee because of they say the names and write them, pffth. But Elvina knows, since she's into the fandom herself! She got us coffee and it was so sweet. We sat for quite some time and talked about everything and nothing. ヽ(；▽；)ノ 

Afterwards Tir and I got to be alone for a while and just talk, but I had to call my dear boyfriend and talk about some stuff since he wasn't feeling well. Ugh, I miss him SO MUCH. But it's less than a month before I get to see him again!
Mh, and yesterday, Saturday, was a lazy day. I stayed in bed for long, feeling odd, and during the afternoon I worked with some crafting, mostly my polymer clay. I made some cute stuff that soon will be up for sale and also be included in my giveaway! ^_^ Eventually, I also went to see my brother, who turned 13 the 21st of Mars. He's grown taller than me, SHIT... Anyhow, I bought Sebastian a nice birthday gift since he turned 28 the 17th of Mars, and I'm gonna finish it soon so he can get it when I visit him. So many brithday... I turn 18 in a little more than a month!

Johan, Niklas and I went to eat at Asian Pong, and damn, the food was so good! I ate lots of sushi, but also some chicken, noodles and shrimps. It was delicious. On top of that, we went to the movies to see Frozen. I love that movie, and to see it on a big movie screen was so much better than my little laptop screen. I got this urge to cosplay Kristoff but... I don't think I will. Maybe casually sometime, if any of my Elsa or Anna Friends want me too. I'm so short tho... u___u
Ahhh and today, another lazy day. Trying to study, doing some crafting, cleaning, laundry, yep, that. There's so much I want to do, but so little time and energy... uah. But I'm happy at least, and this upcoming week will be full of exciting stuff. I hope all of you had a nice weekend!
Chuu puppies!~ 

Photoshoot! ♡

So I had a photoshoot the other day with my brother! We were planning a school project/movie I'll be making with his help, and during a little break we went outside to photograph. It was so much fun and I managed to get some nice shots. It's a little different from my bathroom selfies, haha! A liiiiiittle better quality. I managed to get pictures in some different outfits and looks, so I'll be sharing them on my facebook page Jackocalypse and my Instagram, as well as using them here in my blog... So you'll have to bear with my face. I hope you don't mind, teehee~

Oh and yesterday was my lovely boyfriend's birthday! He's now officially 28 years old, just like Usami Usagi-asn Akihiko from Junjou Romantica, who he's also cosplaying. Soon I'll be 18, just like Misaki Takashi from the same serie. Soon we'll be actual Misaki and Usagi-san! I miss cosplaying them uhuhu... And I miss Sebastian. But I'll be going there in a month, and ugh I MISS HIS HUGS AND KISSES AND HIS STUPID COMMENTS AND HIS SMILE AND LAUGH. Help, I'm a boyfriend in need here, the uke needs his seme. (*⌒▽⌒*)θ～♪

I'm currently DROWNING in school work. Planning a to make a movie for movie making class, writing two different, soon three, history things, some stuff in Swedish, English, and writing classes. Yet I can't really... focus. I start working, I write some stuff, but then I get mad because I want it to be perfect at once. I'm extremely critical towards myself and I can't seem to get over it. It's because I never really got any positive feedback from my dad and stepmom as a kid I guess. So I need it to be perfect at the first try, otherwise I will get mad at myself and just stop, give up. I seriously need to get over that, because I know it can't be perfect all the time, and it's better to hand in something decent rather than nothing. But I'll be getting help for a few hours every Wednesday, so hopefully I can make this year with acceptable grades. I have the will, but I lack the energy. That's why I need help. 

Also... I keep having these nightmares. About dying, watching others, loved ones, die. Dreaming that I have to move away from my current home, or that my mom and stepdad will move there. Other stupid stuff. I end up sleeping for about 3-4 hours every night. Which makes me extremely tired and unfocused. Also I can't really eat properly without waiting for like, 12 hours or longer between the meals. It sucks... I'm getting back into my old ways, and it's no good. I thought I was getting better, but I suppose to much is happening. I'm working really hard to get stable again...!

Mh... that was my rant for now. Chuu puppies~ ♡

Magazine interview

I was so surprised the other day! I had gotten a message on my facebook page Jackocalypse, from a person who said they worked for a teenage magazine called Julia. It's mostly for girls, and I think I read it a few times when I was much younger, like 8-10 years years ago or something. But anyhow, it's really popular, and a lot of young people, especially girls, read it. And I was asked if I wanted to be interviewed, about myself, what I do, cosplay and things alike. It was such a HUGE, happy surprise! ヾ(。◕ฺ∀◕ฺ)ノ

So we talked a little bit, and I'll be expecting a call from her in the beginning of the next week, so we'll saw what the outcome will be! I'm so looking forward to it, because hey, THOUSANDS of people read that magazine and I can be a part of it! It feels so amazing to have been noticed like that. I can't wait to continue working, and soon I'll be doing some modelling jobs from other companies who has been very pleased with my other jobs for them. Advertising and modelling can be so much fun... And I'm happy because they help me, and I help them! The perfect trade!

Ah, and yesterday I hung out with my cutie Trici (Beatrice), and we worked on her psychology studies and she examined me, listened to my life story and shit... It was kind of fun and we ended up like laughing messes quite a lot when we just started talking about totally random things or said something wrong. Also, we cuddled with the dogs Margit and Emil in my large bed, we baked apple pie, had dinner with my neighbors, and watched the three latest Hannibal episodes! We were going to continue with Supernatural but damn, we both fell asleep before midnight, too tired to even keep our eyes open!

It was so much fun and yeah, I have missed hanging out with people like this. I haven't done it in months since everything in my life was really messy and so on. But I'm happy now and hopefully things will get better. Mh, I'm so excited about a lot of things and I will hopefully be working on some stuff for my store today, as well as finishing some school stuff. I'm feeling weird though, like I'm catching a cold again, which is really not what I need right now! But hopefully I will be fine.

Now now, I hope all of you are fine. This was it for this time.

Chuu~! ♥（ﾉ´∀`）

What happened to my hair?

So today is a nervous day. I barely slept last night, so I overslept, missed one train, got ready, but missed the second train too, so I got to go to school by car with Johan, and got quite late. But it's alright since I explained it to the teacher.

I'll be seeing dad for the first time in 7 months today. And it feels... so weird. Almost like it was a week ago since last time, yet... it feels like an eternity. It's just so strange since I have been used to see him every day. And so many things has changed, and I don't know what he'll be like towards me. How he will act, what he will say. Just the thought of it makes me extremely anxious, but I'm trying my very bets not to think to much. I just miss his hugs... his voice, his warmth. It's not enough just hearing him over the phone. He's a very difficult person who can't really show emotions too well, and he often acts kind of bitter. He's not that kind of parent who usually shows if he's proud, and he's not good at giving compliments or praise his children if they've done something good. He's better at the critical stuff, I guess. Which helped to bring down my self confidence as a kid. I never felt good enough. And when he showed that he was proud or happy... I just couldn't get enough of the feeling. But he's trying very hard, and I know that. I love him very much. I miss him so bad it actually hurts sometimes. Hurts for real. I don't want to waste more time since he's old, and you never know when your dearests are going to disappear. 

I miss the dogs to, oh my god... they're like, my best friends. Just thinking about them makes me wanna cry. They were always there when my my parents weren't, and when I had no friends. They always cheered me up, cuddled me, licked my hands and face to show affection when I was feeling down. Hera and Freja, uhuhu, my babies... I just wanna cuddle them so badly right now.

Mh well well, I'm going in like... half an hour. I haven't been able to eat more than a kiwi, and drunk some tea. But it's better than nothing. Might have to run to the store and buy something before Niklas come to pick me up.

At least I got my hair dyed and cut yesterday! I went to my favorite hair dresser after a school meeting with my /awesome/ mentor. She was the one I lived with when I refused to go home and I think that she saved my life kind of... because back then I was really falling back into my depression. She fought so much to make me get into a great home, and now I have Niklas and Johan, thanks to her and one of her co-workers Britt. They're just amazing, beyond words. Thanks to them I'm able to climb towards the top again and I'm gonna work hard to finish all the school stuff... because I know I can if I just push myself hard enough. I'll make this.

Mh... time to finish. I hope all of you have a great day and weekend. 

Chuu, puppies~! （*＾3＾）/～♡
 

Confessions. . .

Yesterday, I was questioned, kind of. And it wasn't the first time. People who read about me, follow me in social medias, people who just meet me for a short while every now and then, or just once, they think 'well that person seems to have such a perfect life, someone like him can't be unhappy'. But there you're wrong. I don't like to write about all my physical and mental problems allover the Internet. So it's understandable that people think that I live a very happy life. So, to make others understand, I will explain now. 

I have the diagnosis depression. I go and see two different psychologists every (sometime every second) week. I struggle with horrible mood swings, anxiety attacks, anxiety over all, and fragile self confidence. I use Instagram as a way to boost myself, and blogging is like... my shrink. I don't write down my self hate or things alike, but I write about things that happen to my, and my thoughts, to reflect. And let the people who are so nice and support me, to know what happens around me.

Both my parents have chosen partners who dislike me and likes to push me down. I had to endure ten years with a stepmother who called me things at times, always loathed my style, my ay to behave, my sexuality, friends, cosplay, hobbies, everything. She made me suicidal. A friend of mine, and GACKT, saved my life when I was sitting on the railroad, 2 years ago. I have had bad habits with selfharm, selfstarving, and things alike. I moved last summer and I haven't seen my dad since then. It's 7 months. And we've been fighting a lot since he didn't want me to move.

My mom is sick. She can't take care of others because of that, and it's not her fault. But it feels like all my life I had to take care of her. Do a lot of chores, shopping, cooking, cleaning. And it wasn't always as appreciated as it should have been, because she forgot that I was doing a lot of things. I grew into a very difficult and messy child. As a 6 years old kid I had to say 'no mom, I don't want any candy' for the weekend, because I knew that if she bought me candy she couldn't afford all the food, or her medicine. I was SIX. A child that age shouldn't have to think of his parent's economy like that.

I have been hit, I have been badly treated, lied to, threatened, and in bad company, during my almost 18 years in life. And yet... I think I turned out quite ok. I don't drink, smoke or do drugs. I ran away from my mom and stepdad because it didn't work out and they made me suicidal again, by treating me wrong and by threatening me. I lived with my teacher for 3 weeks before I got help to move to a emergency family. I refused to go home. I still don't want to spend the night at mom's place even though I visit sometimes.

I now live with a great couple, Niklas and Johan. They're amazing and supporting. But even though that, it can't take away a depression and anxiety problem just with a snap of their fingers. It's hard work, but I'm getting help. I barely went to school for so many weeks, so I have to redo my second high school year. My closest friends betrayed me during the worst period of last year, and turned their back on me, treated me very badly and one of them hurt me on purpose, because of jealousy. It's alright now, because we talked things through and I know why it all happened. It wasn't okay behavior, but I didn't do all things right either. I could have done a little more to prevent it in the beginning. But thanks to that fight, I got one of my closest friends, Tir. We grew close because of that fight.

And I have the most amazing boyfriend you can imagine. I love him deeply, with all my heart, soul and body. Sebastian just has to be my other half. I'm his and he's mine and no one else can change that.

I have positive things in my life, but there's still a lot that I have to work out. My body and body complexes is one. Family problems is one. That I faint as soon as I get to stressed or upset is one. School is one. Self confidence. Work on feeling safe. I know I can reach the top again, I just need to work hard. I want to be able to fulfill my dreams and goals, and most important, I want to help others who has a hard time at home, in school, or just a struggle with themselves. I will be able to, when I feel alright. Until then, I really appreciate all support.

So I want to end this by thanking all of you who do show support and how much you appreciate me. It means SO much to me, and you make me smile and feel better every day. I love you all. Thank you, dear puppies. ♡

UNEXPECTED WOW

Some heichou for Tir~!

Wow. Some really unexpected things happened just yesterday. The day started out so very trashy and I thought it would juts be an awful day, but well, after I left school to visit mom with Tir, things just got better. Tir was the first really good thing of the day, really! We started off by buying some cookies, and went to mom's place. When we were there, all of us talked about me and my mom's problems, and she tried to understand my situation. She also signed the important paper which was such a relief! Also... it turned out that she had told my dad about my problem, and he hadn't got mad or freaked out, like a believed he would. So meeting him on Friday doesn't feel as bad anymore! I have been so incredibly nervous, but now I just feel so relieved and wow, it's a really nice feeling to be honest. Like, as if I'm able to breathe properly for the first time in ages. 

Afterwards we went to Tir's place to chill. I met his adorable little brother who's just 7 months old and my baby feels hit my so hard ugh! </3 I'm a little too young to be a dad just yet though, haha. I don't think Sebastian would like it too much either though, pchoo~ uwu

I got some SnK cosplay straps that originally belonged to Grim but I'll most likely buy them since I have agreed to cosplay as Levi with Tir as my Erwin. I also got some SnK patches, a jacket and a wig that I could cut for Levi, so my Levi cosplay is almost complete except that I need boots and his neck thingy! Also, gotta get some proper makeup... But I did a cos-test last night, and I got so much positive feedback! (*ﾉωﾉ)

"Er...win."

Also got some clothes from Tir, or, bought them, since they were way too small for him but fit me perfectly. Everything felt so positive! I even managed to write an A4 on an essay while I was on the train home, and I haven't been that productive for AGES! I hope things will continue in this direction, because I seriously need this positive energy. So this was it for this time... I hope you enjoy reading this. If you want me to write about other specific things, make sure to let me know! Comment here, write to me on facebook, or Ask.fm!


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Chuuu puppies!~ (◍•ᴗ•◍)❤

Curse Swedish Mail Service

Niklas bought be sushi the other day (｡・//ε//・｡)

Ugh I'm so annoyed! I've been expecting a package from UNIQSO for weeks now, and last week I got a notification that it had arrived to my post office where I live. There's only one problem though. My ID card is old and the info don't fit the info on the package. The package info is correct, but I need a new ID, which I can't get yet. So now they're sending back my package... UGH. I have to wait another month for the lenses, AND I have to pay for the re-shipping. ｡゜(｀Д´)゜｡

We called the Swedish Mail Service twice and tried to explain the situation, but they refused to let me have the package. So yeah... I'm nervous the same thing will happen again, soon, since I'm expecting two other sponsor packages from other companies. I have never had this problem before, so that's why I'm so mad about it right now. It's good that they have rules, sure, so no one can go and get the wrong package.... but I explained my situation so well, and the last name was correct, and there's only 3 people in the whole world with my last name. Me, my mom and brother. So it would be easy to check up on. Also I could tell them where and from who the package was from, what it contained... everything. But they were stubborn. Ugh, I just AHHH. Well, I'll hopefully be able to afford a new ID soon. Until then I have to use my foster dad's or my mom's name. 

Anyhow... I had quite a fun weekend. I went bowling with my foster dads, and the other foster kid who used to live with them. I lost though... but I haven't been bowling for years! Also I made a chocolate mousse cake, which I haven't done in ages, so it was fun as well.

School aren't going well because of my anxiety problems. I'm trying my very best, but it's a struggle just to get there every morning because of my anxiety attacks. It sucks, really, since I totally love school, learning things, getting better at writing, doing media stuff and all. I'm not sure how I'll be able to make this year through, even though it's only a few months left to summer break. I'll be getting help soon though, so I hope things will get better.

Today I'll just visit my school and talk to some teachers before I'll be going to see my mom for the first time in ages. She has to sign an important paper, and I think I'll make her happy if I come and visit her. I feel bad though because.... I don't really miss her. I can't help but wonder if I'm bad, who doesn't. I just don't feel well enough to miss someone who treated me badly I suppose. I still love her and feel bad for her, but she's stealing so much of my energy. It's not all her fault though... but some of it is only her fault. She's trying her best though, so I am too. I'll be seeing Tir too though, so it makes up for all this shit. He's my sweetheart and I miss him shit loads. Honestly, gosh, my eyes tear up just from the thought. ( ﾉ^ω^)ﾉﾟ

Oh well, I have some more interesting stuff to write about, but I'll do that later. Right now I should head off to Stockholm.

Chuu puppies~! （*＾3＾）/～♡

♡ LensCircle review ♡

So yesterday I got my lenses from LensCircle! I could barely believe it when my I checked my mail box, because it had only been 6 days since they confirmed that I would be sponsored and they had told me it would take about 10-14 days. The shipping was so fast! ( ﾉ^ω^)ﾉﾟ

I picked purple ones for this review, since I had been thinking of my character design for my Butler for the Maid Café I'm working at. And I'm very fond of purple, as well as pink, so I figured I should mix the two of them. I ordered a pink and purple pastel wig not long ago, and when I saw these lenses at their website I knew immediately that these would be perfect.

Now, for the lenses!

These are a pair of Purple Super Angel Circle Lenses. They're 14.8 mm wide, and I think my normal contacts are 14.5, so they are only slightly bigger. It gives so much effect though! Since my own eyes are a bit dark, the purple color comes a quite dark purple one too, which is just so lovely! In bad lighting they almost look black, and I really get this typical cute, shota boy look when using them, as with all bigger lenses. These are really cute though and I really love the color of them! It's so vibrant.

You can keep the lenses for 12 months of you take care of them correctly. I wrote more about how you take care of lenses and how you use them in my last review, so I will skip this for this time, and you may take a look at my Lensvillage review if you need to know more about how to use and care for circle lenses!

These were comfortable, and easy to wear. They wouldn't slide around a lot, only in the beginning, like some lenses do. Then they would lay there and I wouldn't even notice I was wearing them! I just have to add that I'm in love with this kind of patterned lenses, because it has a natural, and at the same time not so natural, look. 

With my pair of lenses I also received a pink and cute lens case, with quite deep bowls compared to other cases, which made me happy because then I can contain a lot of lens solution and it won't dry out quickly, or matter if I spill. Aaaaand I also got a super cozy and nice little leopard patterned bag, which is so practical and great to use if I'm travelling somewhere and need somewhere to keep my lens cases! It will definitely come to use when I go to conventions, but also when I'm just out and wearing my lenses. Mhh I'm in love with leopard patterns hehe... ｡◕‿◕｡

So what can be said about this? Well, only that I'm super pleased! 
* Fast shipping 
* Great Lenses 
* Practical AND Cute Lens Case 
* A Nice Bag For Keeping Them In 

So CirlceLens.com is certainly a site you should visit if you're looking for lenses for your cosplay, or for daily wear if you're into alternative styles, or just want to try something new!

Follow the link to get to their site: http://www.lenscircle.com/

Chuu puppies!~ ♡

Hospital Appointment

I'm getting more and more new stuff to work on for items for my shop, and I'm getting more and more excited about selling this summer! I'm planning to sell my stuff at Närcon Summer's Artist Alley, to get some money, since I don't get any when I'm not studying, which I obviously don't do during summer break. There will be some of the old items from Jackocalypse Design, like the bows, some brooches, phone jewelry headbands and stuff, but there will also be some necklaces, iPhone 4/4s cases, mouth masks and rings! Everything in either a cute, alternative or creepy cute style, and lots of pastel colors of course. 

Also, I'm looking forward to have a giveaway soon, at some point, as I mentioned last time I wrote. I just need to make more stuff and gain a little more followers on Instagram. 

Also, I've decided, that for the first time in ages, I will cosplay someone who isn't animated. Since I'm a huge Hannibal fan, both of the movies and the serie, I have decided that I will do a Will Graham cosplay! I watched the new first episode of the second season this weekend, and I realized how much I had missed the series. And Mads Mikkelsen, hhhhh he's such a good actor! I'm used to see him in a commercial for an airline where he's swimming, smiling and enjoying his time with a family in the sun somewhere warm, so to see him as a cold, brutal cannibal is a great difference. But I admire him a lot! I wish I could meet him one day, because I look up to him so much and I want to became an actor myself. Hm... I'm part Danish so at least we have something in common, hehe, nah! (๑・ω-)～♥” 

And today I actually got a call from the hospital! I have these problems with my body not working the way it should, and I have been waiting for ages to get this over with, and finally I managed to get an appointment for next Thursday. I'm super happy and relieved, really! My body isn't always nice to me, but I guess I'm not always nice to it either... but I want to work things out so I can live normally and not be sick and feel bad a lot, like I do now. 

Well then... that has to be it for me for this time. See you soon guys! 。(⌒∇⌒。)

An unexpected journey

Wow, so today something unexpected happened! I had been talking to Sebastian about coming and seeing him around Easter, but wasn't sure if I could afford it, plus, it's quite a long trip, 100-110 swedish miles. :( But today I got help booking train tickets! I was supposed to fly there, but they tickets had gotten more expensive than usual, so well, 12 hours train rides here I come! It will be great though, because I really look forward to meet his friends, parents, dogs, cats, see his apartment and what it looks like where he lives. I've never been that far north before so it will be an experience in itself! I just gotta make sure to fix some good movies, animes and music for that damn train ride. And bring a pillow since I will be travelling at night and chose to sit rather than pay for a bed... Heh, anything for husband-kun though. So now I will also be able to give him his birthday presents in person, only a month late. Ugh, I'm a little nervous though. Feels like those typical american movies when there's a couple and one of them is going to get introduced to the other's parents. I hope they'll like me and that I won't start acting strange and ramble from nervousness.  

Besides, I finally don't feel too sick anymore, so I'll be going to school tomorrow, and some meeting. I'm looking forward to start working on some new items on my shop, as well as doing some studying and writing, and planning for cons. Maybe even start sewing my new Edward Elric cosplay that I hopefully will be wearing at Närcon Summer this year, with my dear friend Rebecca as Lust.         

Oh well, enough about that! I reached 3000 followers on Instagram a few days ago and I've already gotten 300 more. I'm so thankful and happy about it because it gives me a little extra self confidence. I'll be doing a giveaway soon, hopefully, maybe when I reach 3500! So exciting... Well, I should go and shower! I want to be all clean and fresh tomorrow when I go back to my studies at school! Gonna pick an outfit and figure out whether I should be using a wig or my own hair. Always such trouble ~ (｡･ω･｡)Well, chu chu puppies, goodnight! （*＾3＾）/～♡